I'm just feeling so OVERWHELMED. I'm moving to a whole new country, I won't know anyone. I'm starting a new job in a mixed emergency department - I haven't worked with adults in 3.5 years, let alone in an acute emergency situation. I'm terrified of going back to full time work and being exhausted all of the time. The house is in the middle of nowhere, 40 minutes from town and back. Between late-early shifts, with just 8 hours to spare, that leaves little time for sleep. Getting up in the morning in the dead of winter seems cruel. And yet I know I have to go. I have to move on with my life, I have to explore while I have the chance, before I settle into this easy, comfortable and stable routine for the rest of my life. I know a year is not a long time, but right now it feels like forever. And I know I will not stop then. After that it will be travelling for at least another two. I want to enjoy these last two months, but already I'm so apprehensive about what happens after that...
