Day 5 of pain free. After 10 weeks of solid pain, from waking until sleeping, I'm counting the days. I'm scared of it returning. The operation was pretty horrific. Much worse than expected. They sent me home 2 hours post op, after 14mg morphine (3 times as much as I've ever had from memory). I couldn't walk to the car. 3 hours later, I couldn't move. Had to be lifted everywhere, and I screamed whenever I was moved a centimetre. So it was decided to return to the closest ED, where I was then admitted for 3 days for regular morphine. There were more adhesions. For months I have been told there is nothing physiologically wrong with me causing my pain. I have been made to feel as though it were all completely in my head. But it wasn't. It was real. There were ADHESIONS. I may have endometriosis after all. It's a relief. I hated myself for being such a hyperchondriac. I thought it was all in my head. No one offered me any support. They let me believe that. And now I'm day 5 of no pain. Please let this last.
