I haven't slept in about 4 days. I just lie awake, thinking. I haven't heard back about the job. I try and think logically, and wonder how many people with experience could apply for 1 of 2 jobs in a rural ED, but logic doesn't work for 2 weeks running. I have nowhere to live. The house's owner turned out to be an anal pain in the arse - snippets of her emails: "When I told the rental agency the bedroom furniture cost more than the house they would not handle the property ." " it can be a lot of gardening. I put in about 3 hours a week on the garden and the front " etc etc etc. In total there were 3 emails, about 3 pages each, detailing all the necessary chores that the house required. Considering I don't even know if I'll be working anywhere near there, I think it's best for all concerned to just leave it. I feel like shit tonight. I accidentally missed my friend from works' party. I thought it was Thursday. And it's not. It's Friday, and her party was tonight. I'm tired and shitty and just feel... low. I went to the doctor today, and got some sleeping tablets. I just want to take enough to sleep through the year. Sorry. Life will be better tomorrow. Emails can make a world of difference. Just sometimes the world is a lot smaller than it needs to be to solve all the problems.
