I just feel......flat, I guess. I'm not crying anymore over Emma, the bitch nurse from work, but I'm not happy, either. It's hard to be disliked, particularly when you're NICE to everyone. I never have disagreements with anyone. I smile and I laugh (no sign of the depression that I show here), and I'm interested in what people have to say. I know this all sounds very martyrish, but it's true. I may not like everyone I come across, but I never, ever show it. Mainly because I'm so non confrontational and have such low self esteem - who am I to judge anyone else? So it just hurts so much when someone is so mean to me - and will not even give me an opportunity to defend myself or ANYTHING.
I want answers, but I'm also terrified of getting them. I can't think of anything that I've done, but what if there is something major, and I'm in deep shit? I just feel sick with nerves.

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