I'm so frustrated and sad. Click here to read the referral letter my GP wrote to the gynaecologist. I never wanted to go and see her again, because she's told me there's nothing more she can do for me (I've had 3 laparoscopies and 2 nerve ablations). But all throughout these last few months, everyone's told me I had to go back to see her, because THEY didn't have any more answers. My GP has been wonderful throughout all this time, convincing me that it's not all in my head (that's how you start to think/feel when there are no answers). But the way she's written this referral,all the gynae's going to think is otherwise. Especially when she writes about my depression etc - I became depressed long after the pain started - it was one of the reasons I believe I became depressed! Not the other way around - the depression didn't cause some pyschosomatic abdo pain. And the way she writes my feelings about the doctors in hospital - how I felt they thought I was a drug seeker....why did she have to mention that? Now that's the first thing SHE'S going to think! I don't want to go and see her. But I can't do any more about the abdo pain until I rule everything out officially. The clinic won't be happy if I haven't, either. I'm just so nervous about sitting opposite her and have her thinking that this is all in my head. Especially when I've spent the last few months being talked out of that very notion. I'm just sick of it. All of it. I just want to be normal.
