He's hurting and I know he has every right to be. And I know I deserve everything I get from him, because I did the worst possible thing. But he's breaking me. The things he is saying are literally breaking me in half, I can't bear them. I'm shaking and I'm crying and I'm sick and I'm tired but I can't sleep. I just want to die. And I know how melodramatic that sounds, but it's true. I won't, because I couldn't, but I want to. I keep wanting to wake up, but I don't. When I dream, it's of us in happy times, and when I wake there are more cruel messages to hear or see. I don't know if I can keep going like this. But I have to. I have to endure this. Please, just let me wake.
