I feel as though I've missed out on a lot. I'm only 22 so I suppose in a way I have plenty of time to rectify this, but I simply feel too TIRED to do so. When I was younger, my self confidence was next to zero, and so I kept to myself, and filled my time with 'me'. Diaries, letters, artwork. All very introspective. I learned a lot about myself, and not much about other people or the world. I turned 18 and legal, and went out occassionally. I met boys, went out with them once or twice, and ran away (or they from me to all parts of Australia or the world). I didn't sleep around, I didn't get pissed every Thursday, Friday and Saturday night. I have no wild "Once when I was drunk" stories. None. I didn't have close girlfriends who I went crazy with. I was the designated driver because alcohol made my stomach hurt for a week afterwards. I went straight from school, with an OP2, to a university degree, graduating with a distinction, to full time work at a hospital that accepted 14 graduates out of nearly 800 applicants. I worked for a year and then started this art course. I mean, I don't regret any of this. I'm proud of my accomplishments. But I feel as though I've skipped the fun stuff. I don't want to be on my last day of my life wishing I'd DONE more. I don't want to remember my life as one that was spent being afraid of doing the wrong thing. So, come on world - please corrupt me. Forget morals and ethics - have your way with me!
